On Saturday night Miang and I joined friends Linda and Stephen on their converted catamaran home moored at the Seaview Marina. The boat was previously a ferry carrying people to the "hole in the rock" at the Bay of Islands. Sadly we didn't take pictures then, probably being too distracted by the exciting Easter Egg hunt organised by Stephen's daughter Goldie. Tuesday, April 26, 2011
A picture from the past with echoes present
On Saturday night Miang and I joined friends Linda and Stephen on their converted catamaran home moored at the Seaview Marina. The boat was previously a ferry carrying people to the "hole in the rock" at the Bay of Islands. Sadly we didn't take pictures then, probably being too distracted by the exciting Easter Egg hunt organised by Stephen's daughter Goldie. Monday, April 18, 2011
The Crazy Optimist
I am living a strange life since the New Zealander of the Year Award. A deluge of speaking invitations from extraordinarily diverse groups and organisations has turned me into a sort of public entertainer.I am not wasting this opportunity to get a message across with multiple captive audiences. Here are some examples: the Parliamentary Speakers Forum, the Salvation Army, secondary school careers advisors, the New Zealand Medical Students Association, World Class New Zealanders, the Labour Party Conference, Federated Farmers Conference, the Ministry of Economic Development and the Ministry of Social Development. The Parliamentary Greens invited me, then uninvited me when I promised "tough love". What I am delivering is a 20 minute "stump speech" which I vary a bit according to the audience. Thanks to Wendy McGuinness of the "Sustainable Future Institute", the talk got filmed last week and with some IT magic, the powerpoint slides were incorporated to give the YouTube presentation below.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I should be so lucky
It's a grainy old picture, taken with my iphone, without a flash. But is a delight to me, and to my ego, being flanked by two lovely women. Saturday, April 9, 2011
This wasn't supposed to be
Nearly a year ago, in early May 2010, Miang and I walked part of the skyline track on the Northern Walkway near Mount Kau Kau. I had just begun chemotherapy, and my oncologists had given me limited survival prospects. It seemed unlikely that I would last much beyond the end of the year, and Christmas 2010 seemed a remote and indistinct place, at best inhabited by a very sick Paul, with some visiting family in attendance.Thursday, March 31, 2011
Heroic Educated Kiwi Expatriates
On Tuesday, in Auckland, I opened the Salvation Army Red Shield Appeal. It was a great honour to be asked, especially given that I am a publicly declared atheist. But I love the Sallys and their cause is noble.
On the same occasion I launched the HEKE campaign, a call for the New Zealanders living abroad with student loans not being repaid, to move from being Educated Kiwi Expatriates, to Heroic Educated Kiwi Expatriates. 85,000 overseas Kiwis owe $2 billion, and 35,000 are in default. The median debt isn't large, around $18,000. The opportunity is this. Pay back the loan, in your own self-interest, and be celebrated as a hero or heroine for doing so. New Zealand has taken a huge hit to our economy from the Christchurch February 22 earthquake. The estimates range from $15 billion to $30 billion for the rebuilding, and the taxpayer contribution is at least $7 billion. The student loan offshore is held in a foreign currency and if repaid represents a cost to those other country's other economies. The appeal is highly controversial. I got the backing of the Reserve Bank Governor in advance, and set up the repayment link with the Inland Revenue Department. The government was informed at the last minute. This is an independent appeal from me, as a member of our expatriate's academic family back home. It is going out on social media with Facebook and Twitter. The website is http://www.heke.ac.nz
In Maori, "heke" means to reduce. By reducing their loans, our ex-students help New Zealand rebuild Christchurch. My appeal has generated a media storm with a hectic 36 hours of TV interviews, radio interviews and newspaper articles. The response has been 85% positive, though I have had many emails attacking me, and the Facebook wall (http://www.facebook.com/hekeproject) has seen several critical comments, each of which I've tried to answer positively. I append below a series of TV interviews relating to the project as well as one fascinating newspaper article. I received an email from Hong-Kong, copied to various NZ media luminaries. I answered the email late at night, reply to all, and next day found it to be the front page story in the New Zealand Herald, our biggest (Auckland-based) newspaper. Be careful what you write in an email! Fortunately, I think I replied well, and the feedback was overwhelmingly positive for me.
http://tvnz.co.nz/national-news/expat-students-asked-pay-off-their-loans-help-chch-4091032/video
http://tvnz.co.nz/breakfast-news/students-paying-back-loans-sir-paul-callaghan-4-25-video-4091039
http://www.stuff.co.nz/timaru-herald/news/national/4819276/Expats-urged-to-settle-student-loans-for-Christchurch
http://tvnz.co.nz/back-benches/s2011-e6-video-4082522
http://www.newstalkzb.co.nz/podcasts/audio/29113603.mp3
http://www.radionz.co.nz/national/programmes/ninetonoon/20110329
http://www.nzherald.co.nz/nz/news/article.cfm?c_id=1&objectid=10715896
As I told the Dominion Post, if hot coals fall on my head, so be it. I'm too old to care.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Relay for life




Friday, March 18, 2011
Latest CEA and fireworks in the pipeline
Yes, there is another rise, from 4.9 to 5.2 ng/ml. It's a slow drift upwards, and the rate of growth, if exponential (that's a linear rise on the semilog graph here) is slower than in the first couple of months after the peritonectomy. Miang and I talked with my oncologist today, and we have decided to stop capecitabine chemotherapy for 6 weeks (an equivalent of two cycles) to see what the CEA does in response. It's a way of teasing out some better understanding of the data.Meantime, I'm feeling well, enjoying life, and enormously busy. The copy-edited book is finally in production (due out in June), I'm busy teaching and I'm meeting an array of speaking commitments. The last one was to about 30 MPs from assorted parties in Parliament on Tuesday night. I'm about to launch a huge project on 29 March 2011. Watch the news media that day and go to http://www.heke.ac.nz. Fireworks are going to happen.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
A remarkable 24 hours
On Tuesday last week (before poor Japan's terrible earthquake) I flew to Gisborne along with poet Bill Manhire, historian Lydia Wevers, and science event genius Glenda Lewis.From Gisborne airport we drove to the tiny town of Uawa at Tolaga Bay, the place where Captain James Cook undertook the first constructive interaction of Europeans with Maori, in 1769. Prior to that, in 1642, Abel Tasman had a disastrous contact involving deaths on both sides, before he retreated from New Zealand, naming the place where he moored his ship, "Murderers Bay". Cook made first mooring in the Bay of modern day Gisborne, and, following a haka by locals, muskets were fired and locals killed. Realising his appalling error, Cook retreated up the coast to Tolaga Bay, where he used the only polynesian on board, the Tahitian chief Tupaia, to assist in contact. It went smoothly and today, residents of Tolaga Bay regard Cook with affection, while 40 minutes drive down the coast, in Gisborne, he is regarded as a villain. Such are the vicissitudes of history.
So why were we there? On June 6 2012 the second transit of Venus of this century will occur, the first having taken place on June 8 2004. Transits of Venus are both rare and predictable astronomical events, with pairs of transits eight years apart separated by long gaps of 121.5 years and 105.5 years, making a 243 year cycle, the periodicity being determined by the ratio of the Earth and Venus orbital periods. Before 2004, the last pair of transits were in 1874 and 1882, and before that in 1761 and 1769. It was the second, 1769, transit that brought James Cook to Tahiti, and subsequently to New Zealand.
This extraordinary event in 2012 will provide a focus for a major occasion, based on the East Coast so as to associate with James Cook, in which leading New Zealand thinkers outline their scenarios for New Zealand's future. Those scenarios will focus on opportunity, and they will be optimistic and
bold. A key element of the occasion will be a partnership with local iwi and an expression of their view of the future of Maori New Zealand and the emerging Maori economy.The local people are known as Te Aitanga-a-Hauiti, a sub-tribe of Ngati Porou, the mainstay of the legendary 28th (Maori) battalion of World War II. They welcomed us with open arms. We visited the local area school, with tamariki from 5 to 18 years old. It is 97% Maori, with remarkable principal Nori Parata. We listened to the kids read their own poetry and Bill read some of his, to their obvious delight. Lydia spoke with them, I spoke with them, and the Gisborne Herald featured the attached picture.
In the afternoon we walked to Cook's Cove, the place where he moored his boat (the second picture).
That evening we were hosted at a wonderful meal in the home of one of the local Maori leaders, in which every speech had to be followed by a waiata (a song), in Te Reo (the Maori language). I could manage three, fortunately, since I spoke three times. The final picture shows one of those waita in progress, with Bill and Glenda in the background. The woman in the foreground to the left is Ngahuia Ngata, a descendant of one of the most famous Maori leaders of New Zealand history, Apirana Ngata. His face adorns our $50 banknote. Ngahuia bears the moko on her face, sign of dignity and pride in Maori women.
These remarkable tangata whenua, the people of
1000 years residency, are extraordinarily adept and erudite in both the Maori and European worlds. We pakeha struggle to make that same transition. But if ever there was a meeting of minds and hearts, this occasion represented it in abundance. We all see a future for our country based on respect and understanding.PS: Apirana Ngata is responsible for one of New Zealand's best known proverbs:
Ui mai koe ki ahau he aha te mea nui o te ao, Maku e ki atu he tangata, he tangata, he tangata!
Ask me what is the greatest thing in the world, I will reply: It is people, it is people, it is people!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Wanganui Technical College Reunion
Over the weekend of 19th and 20th February, my old High School, Wanganui Technical College, held its centenary reunion. The school is now called City College and is majority Maori, with Principal Peter Kaua, also Maori. On the Thursday before the reunion, I had the honour of addressing the school assembly. The local paper, the Wanganui Chronicle, made quite a splash, and in the article shown, you can see me singing the school song with gusto, no notes needed!There were some remarkable occasions over those days. As I walked up to the school on the Thursday I saw the familiar face of my old freezing works boss, Vic Gowan. He had come especially to see me, and to tell me proudly that I wa
s one of "his boys" who had "done well".Another delightful aspect of the reunion was sifting through the old school magazines, but especially the enrolment forms filled out by our parents. There, in the tidy handwriting of my Mum, was her 1960's intent for my future made clear. I was to be a laywer, something she never told me about. I may have disappointed her, but my own daughter Catherine, should have fulfilled her wish, one generation later, and no doubt to her pride.
One of the magazines, from my last year at school, had some cringe-inducing poetry by me, dripping with adjectives, and far too influenced by Dylan Thomas. The class photo here has me at 17, scowling third from the right on the back row, no doubt during my "I am cool" phase.
My brother Jim was also at the reunion, getting a really big turnout from his 1950's classmates. It was a nice opportunity to spend the weekend with him. He is somewhere on the right in the group photo being taken outside the school's wharenui.

On the Saturday night, a renuion dinner was held in the Wanganui Memorial Hall, and I gave the after dinner address. A few tales from the freezing works got the necessary laughs, but there was a serious side to what I told the gathering.

"So what is it about this school that we treasure? Most of us didn’t have silver spoons in our mouth when we were born. None of us were born to rule. We had to build our own futures. That Wanganui Technical College education was our chance and it came with a whole lot of extras. “First be good and then be clever”, “All is overcome by working”, “Speak the truth and play the game”, or as (then principal) Ces Day would say, “Be magnanimous in victory and uncomplaining in defeat.” (We had few opportunities to be magnanimous as I recall). These odd, quaint phrases are burned into our brains. So yes this school has produced its share of famous pupils and I am probably as notorious as any of them. But that is not why this school is great. Its greatness is what you and I have sensed thes
e last two days as we have met our fellow classmates. The school is great because it has produced good people who value education and are themselves well-educated and highly skilled, people who work hard and who add to community by acting fairly and honestly and with kindness. For what is being a New Zealander about if it is not about this civil discourse, this fundamental decency and kindness which marks us out in the world as a spe
cial country made up of remarkable people?"I finish with two photos. One of me with fellow Wanganui-East boy, Rex McKinnon, the other of the river steamer Waimarie, chugging under the Aramoho railway bridge.
"Ko Whanganui Te Awa", this place of my birth, my childhood, my youth, and to which I will always belong.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
An extraordinary image
la on the Port Hills, the moment the quake struck. The map shows the distribution of earthquakes between September 4 2010 and February 22 2011.
The latter quake was associated with energy release at the eastern end of the fault. The proximity of the epicentre to the Christchurch CBD was the main reason for the destruction.Saturday, February 26, 2011
Latest CEA and CT scan results
I learned yesterday that one of our MacDiarmid Institute Principal Investigators has not heard from his wife since she visited the Christchurch CBD on Tuesday. It is likely that she is amongst the casualties. In the context of the tragedy in Christchurch, my solitary health problems pale into insignificance.Still, I will keep faith with the intent of the blog, to keep friends and family updated on my health progress. This week I had a staging X-ray CT and another (three-weekly) blood test. The CT found no evidence of metastasis, though any relief needs to be tempered with the knowledge that contrast CT is fairly insensitive, and will only see tumours once they are at cm scale. The CEA showed another increase, from 4.5 to 4.9, a slight rate-of-rise increase as can be seen in the graph update. Still, there is no reason to alter my current thinking that while the disease may be recurring, there is still the possibility of post-operative chemotherapy effects.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
The severity of the damage
(Photos, Mark Mitchell and The Christchurch Press)
The Pyne Gould building, Canterbury TV and other buildings where most lives were lost are all believed to have been built before a succession of increasingly tough earthquake-resistant standards began in the mid-1970s.
A 2004 change to the Building Act required all local councils to adopt policies to strengthen such buildings to at least one-third of the current building standard.
But engineers say that almost all councils, except Wellington, have adopted merely "passive" policies which do not require strengthening old buildings except when their owners seek new building consents for alterations.
And Auckland University Associate Professor Jason Ingham, a management committee member of the NZ Society for Earthquake Engineering, said the society advocated raising the requirement to two-thirds of the current standard.
"If you improve your building to only one-third of the building standard, it is still 20 times more likely than a modern building to fall down in an earthquake," he said. "At two-thirds, it's only something like three times as likely to fail."
Ironically, Dr Ingham and other international experts were in Christchurch when the quake struck on Tuesday holding a seminar aimed at getting councils to give more urgency to strengthening old reinforced masonry (brick, stone or concrete) buildings.
He said that, even after the first Christchurch quake in September, most councils had not identified buildings at risk in a major earthquake, contacted the owners or developed any plans for how to strengthen them.
"Everybody has to learn from every earthquake. Anyone who feels there is nothing to be learnt is just being naive," he said.
Another Auckland University engineer, Dr Quincy Ma, said Tuesday's building collapses did not necessarily show that the structures were not strong enough, because the quake was so violent.
"The ground motion in Christchurch was over what we expect for a 1000-year return period," he said. "We design for a 475-year return period."
This means the ground shaking from Tuesday's magnitude 6.3 quake was even more violent than Christchurch can expect from a magnitude 8 jolt on the Alpine Fault, which is expected every 300 to 400 years and was regarded as the test that buildings had to be designed for. The fault last moved 290 years ago.
Dr Ma said the fault that shook the city this week had not been identified as a major risk before.
"From the last [September] quake we thought all the lessons had been learnt, but that was just a dress rehearsal for the real test," he said.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Christchurch February 22
Just before 1 pm local time, a 6.3 magnitude earthquake hit 10km southeast of the city. Even though this quake dissipated nearly an order of magnitude less energy than the September 4 2010 quake (magnitude 7.1), its proximity to the surface and to the city centre made its destructive power much greater.This time, people were caught in collapsing buildings and in falling masonry. The death toll is liable to be in the 100s. Tonight the rescue services are trying to get people out of those buildings.
For a flyover of the quake damage see below. You will see that the destruction is partial, though the majority of buildings which remained standing have sustained damage, some serious.
http://tvnz.co.nz/national-news/video-aerial-views-quake-devastated-christchurch-3-12-4038584
5th wedding anniversary

Miang and I celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary by taking an Air New Zealand "Mystery Weekend" package. They sent us to Queenstown, a fairly lucky outcome for us. The place really is beautiful. We climbed to the top of Queenstown Hill (950 m), had lunch in Arrowtown, of course sampling the famous Arrowtown pies, visited rural galleries (oh, the lifestyle of artists in Central Otago), drove to Glenorchy and Paradise (one of the more spectacular drives in New Zealand), and enjoyed the delights of Queenstown cafes and restaurants.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Cousins reunion
My mother came from a family of nine girls, as tight-knit a bunch of women as you could find. Their husbands became brothers-in-law whose family life largely centered around the sisters and their off-spring, my cousins, all 38 of them.Every few years the cousins gather. Their children are banned, so that we will avoid dividing into vertical family groups and instead horizontally connect. This year we met at the Kahuterawa valley near Palmerston North, in the home of Alistair and Anne Hall. This photo shows a lineup of some of my female cousins. What more can I say!
Sunday, February 20, 2011
The Tora walk
The Tora Walk is a three day affair, where walkers cross over farmland to the South Wairarapa Coast, up that coast and then back across the third side of the triangle to the starting point. Each night is spent in farmhouse or "shearers quarters" accommodation and all food is supplied by the hosts, three local farming couples who have combined to create this experience. The food is superb and our bags are transported from cottage to cottage, our wine deposited in the fridge at each venue to be waiting for us on arrival. The cost is a mere snip at $415 per head for three nights, all meals inclusive.http://www.toracoastalwalk.co.nz/
Miang and I did this journey (our third time) with Ed, Carol and Casey Samulski and our dear friend Margaret Brown who has just retired as Manager of the MacDiarmid Institute. Margaret took the first picture. She can b
e seen in the larger group photo, in the white top and white cap.Apart from the last night, when the meal (magnificent always) is delivered to the table, the supplied and pre-prepared meal is cooked or heated by the party, with washing up an additional duty, so that all join together in communal activity. The walk can accommodate a party of 14, so that when a smaller group like ours participates, we get to met congenial fellow walkers with whom friendships are made by the end of day three.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Uncle Andy
On Sunday 6th February, we lost a beloved relative, Miang's Uncle Andy Lim, who lived in Sydney Australia. Miang flew to Sydney last week to be with the family and attend the funeral.I would like to pay my tribute to Andy here.
Uncle Andy was a pioneer of education, a strong supporter of family and a man with a big heart.
Way back in the 1950s, Andy achieved the highest levels of education in chemical engineering in Australia and had a highly successful career as a senior technical manager in the oil industry.
I got to meet him much later in his life, but I took an immediate liking to him. He was a typical Lim, smart, tough, open-minded, wise and kind. He wanted to discuss with me subjects as diverse as quantum mechanics, economics and current affairs. His mind was as sharp as a knife. But best of all was his astonishing generosity and care. He, along with daughter Lily and son-in-law Anthony, was so helpful to Miang and me during my medical trips to
Australia.He was almost the first person I saw when I was coming round in ICU in St George hospital. That was typical of Andy. When he went on holiday he said to us-"have the house, and the Mercedes". That was typical of Andy.
And he did me the honour of sharing with me his confidences, talking to me man-to-man as a family member.
Andy was a vigorous man, way ahead of his time, who remained young at heart in his 80s. I am so lucky to have known him, even if for a short time. Miang and I will miss him very much
Friday, February 11, 2011
AMN-5
This last week has seen the 5th of our MacDiarmid Institute "Advanced Materials and Nanotechnology" conferences here in Wellington. 500 attendees, mostly international, met at the Michael Fowler Centre to hear talks by Nobel Laureate Sir Anthony Leggett, Cavendish Professor Sir Richard Friend, and a range of speakers young and old. For me, one of the best aspects of the meeting is that it has drawn to New Zealand, yet again, wonderful friends, Mark Warner, Suzanne Fielding and of course, Ed Samulski, from the University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill. And Ed, on his 7th visit to New Zealand, brought with him wife Carol and son Casey. Last week we walked the Tora Wairarapa Coastal trail together, and I will post pictures from that walk soon.Last night was the conference dinner and this picture of Ed and me says something of our mood. It was taken after a surprise event in which colleague Kate McGrath, and three of my ex-graduate students, Andrew Coy, Mark Hunter and Craig Rofe, came to the stage of the Town Hall venue, and gave personal tributes involving anecdotes illustrating my idiosyncracies. Craig spoke last with a wonderful korero followed by an electrifying
haka, which I stood to receive, before we ended with a heartfelt hongi.Ed is one of my dearest friends. He is also a comrade, having been through 42 irradiation sessions for prostate cancer. His PSA (prostate specific antigen) levels are now extremely low and his prognosis is good. Ed's trials took place at the same time as my own last year. Somehow, having a great friend fighting his own battle at the same time as me, gave me extra strength.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
More on the awards dinner
Miang and I were given the chance to invite old friends along at the NZer of the year dinner. On the right is Pamela Miller and on the left is Richard Green and Jeanette Miller (no relation to Pamela). I think we all looked pretty good. It is fun to dress up.The media madness has continued. I've added a link to an "OpEd" the DomPost asked me to provide, as well as a link another TV show below. It was "Good Morning" and I was sandwiched between a cooking spot and some Zumba dancers. It's a whole new demographic for science!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
An astonishing story
Last night Miang and I flew to Auckland for the "New Zealander of the Year" awards dinner.For the last 14 hours I have been in the middle of a media storm, not to mention the 100 emails and endless text messages.
Newspapers
http://www.stuff.co.nz/dominion-post/news/4610988/Scientist-and-man-of-vision-NZer-of-the-Year
http://www.stuff.co.nz/national/4610844/Scientist-named-Kiwi-of-the-Year
http://tvnz.co.nz/national-news/new-zealander-year-announced-4011907
http://www.wanganuichronicle.co.nz/have-your-say/news/sir-paul-wins-a-top-nz-honour/3939260/
http://www.stuff.co.nz/dominion-post/opinion/4628542/Path-to-prosperity-lies-in-technology-niches
TV interviews
http://tvnz.co.nz/breakfast-news/new-zealander-year-professor-sir-paul-callaghan-3-15-video-4012076
http://tvnz.co.nz/good-morning/s2011-sirpaul-090211-video-4018870
Radio interview
http://www.newstalkzb.co.nz/streaming/Audioplayer.asp?filename=http://www.newstalkzb.co.nz/podcasts/audio/03103528.mp3&heading=Sir%20Paul%20Callaghan%20-%20NZer%20of%20the%20Year&longhead=New%20Zealander%20of%20the%20Year,%20Sir%20Paul%20Callaghan,%20speaks%20to%20Mike%20Hosking%20about%20the%20award
I'm now off to the hills for a spot of hiking. No cellphone, no internet. Bliss!
Postscript:
I'm back now-with another full "Inbox". And to my relief, I got the news that my CEA
had shown only a very small rise (see graph). I have checked with my Sydney oncologist and while he admits that the disease may be recurring, he also thought it might be possible that "post-operative effects" combined with my current capecitabine chemo regime, may be causing an elevated level.We will just keep tracking this data. Meanwhile I feel monstrously well.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Robbie Burns and Heather
Ridiculous, you may say, that one of Irish descent should attempt such a feat. And you may well be right. But for posterity, I share with you the event. Heather is the whisky pourer on the right of the group. Miang did the filming.
PS:The Haggis was delicious.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
The Lamberts and the Lab Lunch
This weekend, our old friends, Rod and Joan Lambert have been visiting us from New Plymouth. After a tour of the Brake Exhibition at the Te Papa Gallery, we have been enjoying relaxing at home, albeit with a bit of extra company from the lab, during Sunday lunch.Amongst the delights of the lunch were the accompanying children; Petrik and Ying's Ocean and Victor, and Mark and Jillian's Samuel and
Thomas.
During lunch, Ocean discovered a copy of Ice Age 3 on DVD and asked if he and Samuel could watch it. Here they are, sharing the computer view, and completely entranced.
PS: The lunch was of course a magnificent feast, typical of Miang's genius, in which she was ably assisted by her loyal and uncomplaining vegetable cutter.
Visitors from Israel
This week Daniella Goldfarb and her husband Arnon, passed through Wellington as part of a multi-week tour of New Zealand. Daniella is a Professor at the Weizmann Institute and one of Israel's leading scientists, as well as being famous internationally for her work in Electron Paramagnetic Resonance. I was able to join them both for a delightful meal at a restaurant on the Wellington Waterfront. Foolishly, I was so engrossed in conversation that I forgot to get the waiter to take a photograph, so this picture of the two of them near Auckland, and supplied by Daniella through email, will have to suffice.In 2014, Daniella takes over as President of ISMAR (International Society of Magnetic Resonance), the role that I had from 2008 to 2011.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Latest medical developments

It is a long time since I posted an entry. In part this has been because I have been taking the opportunity to enjoy the beautiful summer we are having, with some travel to see family and friends, and, on return to a balmy Wellington, to enjoy walks and little fishing forays with Miang in the evening. We have cast our lines at Makara beach, Titahi Bay and off the Miramar pensinsula, for two fish caught and one landed.
But the real reason I have delayed blogging is that I have been in a sort of "medical limbo" following a mid December CEA measurement which indicated a rise, from my famous 3.0 ng/ml, to 3.8. In proportional (or logarithmic) terms, this was actually a big rise, but still, down at the lower levels of measurement where the errors are probably on the order of 0.5 ng/ml. Hence, my oncologist and I resolved that we would not read too much into this rise, and await the next measurement in mid January. Today I got the result. 4.3 ng/ml. Disappointing, one might say.
So, this seems to be a real trend, not a statistical fluctuation. Miang and I spent some time discussing this with the very capable oncologist registrar who saw me at the hospital today. There seems to be a high probability that the cancer has not been vanquished by the Sydney surgery and hyperthermic intraperitoneal chemotherapy. Of course, I can always find some silver lining in the clouds of gloom. First, the latest fractional rise was less than the one immediately previous. You can see this very clearly in the logarithmic graph shown here. Second, I feel very well, having completely recovered from surgery with the various wound pains finally disappearing in the last couple of weeks. Finally the rate of rise may be sufficiently slow to give me many months of good health and normal activity.
There is a down side, I do have to admit. Essentially, I have run out of treatment options. Whatever cancer remains now has survived all the previous chemotherapy drugs. This is Darwinian evolution and natural selection at work. The new cancer cells are likely to be resilient to Oxaliplatin, Capecitabine, Irinotecan and possibly even Avastin. And that's about all there is on the menu, apart from the ancient 5FU, the workhorse of oncology from decades ago.
But, the fact remains that the sun is shining brilliantly as La Nina brings us the summer of my childhood memories. I will persist with the current oral chemotherapy, and with an increased dose. And of course, there is always uncle CC's vegetable juice. I am downing this elixir every morning, before my daily walk with Miang. Life seems not too bad.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Christmas at Waitarere Beach
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Chris, Hiva, James and Thomas
On Monday this week, son Chris and his family arrived in New Zealand. Based in Palmerston North, they have made day trips and a weekend
visit to Wellington, and they will join Miang and me at Waitarere
beach for Christmas and Boxing day.On our first expedition we went to the local playground in Khandallah, where James met met Mark Hunter's son, Sam. Both boys were very courteous, and when Sam fell over, James asked "are you alright?"
James, who is 3 years and 3 months, hadn't seen me for over a year, and so it took a little while to get to know
"Granddad Paul", but b
y the time of his second visit, I was in great demand for reading stories, assembling jigsaw puzzles, and playing the horn, the latter being a source of horrified fascination.Thomas seemed to respond well to my theory that all infants, when hel
d, like to grip grandparent fingers, or have their feet dance on grandparent legs. He is such a sweet fellow, blessed with an extremely kind big brother.James's favourite read was a curious book of "Fables" which Miang had bought, including geese with golden eggs, little boys crying wolf, and goats failing to look before they leap. What terrible things we adults do to young minds!
By the way, James is clearly reading. Is this something that 3+ year olds are supposed to do? Oh and he can also sing very well. Is it OK to boast about the cleverness of grandchildren? Such difficult questions I have to wrestle with.





